From the beginning of time (in our relationship timeline, that is)...
Without beating around the bush, I'd list out some things about me.
Good, bad, what I'd do and won't do.
To me, you don't need to go through that "acting" or "dating" phase
And then surprise your partner with another side of you in the future.
I guess that's why unlike most other couples who have their "honeymoon" period
Which usually falls during the first few weeks or months of their relationship
We had tons and tons of fights.
Not that it's good to quarrel a lot
But it didn't help that we were going through crap during that period of time.

Anyway, to cut this part short,
One of the things I told him I wouldn't do is cook.
I just feel that I'm one of those horrible cook who creates disaster all the time.
When I was in my early teens, I used to love cooking for my family
But after every meal, I always thought they weren't ever good enough.
Always too salty or too tasteless or too weird.
I guess I was my worse critic.
Yet, my family never complained and I take it that they were just too polite to say otherwise or they were just too hungry at the moment.

It's been months since I watched "The Rachael Ray" Show on Sony tv channel
At my bf's house.
I kinda forced him to pay a year's supply of that one channel.
FAIL!
It wasn't worth the money at all.
Initially, there was Gray's Anatomy and some nice shows
But after the seasons were done with...
Nothing else on it was ever good enough to watch.
All except the occasional RR show.
But I'd only be glued to it if
1. there was something interesting her guests wanted to talk about
2. a nice looking dish she cooked up
She always made them look so easy to make.

Well, nothing struck me until 2 weeks ago..
When I saw her making this stuff chicken thingy.
I was mesmerized by that few minutes.
Totally glued and giving my whole attention to her talking and showing the steps
'Cause I've got the feeling that my bf was talking to me at that moment.
Haha.. at least I think he did.
After the show, I told him... I'm gonna try cooking that.
Usually I'd go through that "No action talk only" mode, based solely on my mood.
Especially cooking.
Actually, I never did say I'd ever want to even try the very least to cook.
'Cause I knew I'd rather do something else.

But, after I got home, I googled on the full recipe.
I was going "OH NO!" when I saw fresh herbs in it.
Googling further, I found that there was a supermarket selling fresh ones.
Had to take a bus all the way to buy 'em.
The supermarkets nearby don't sell those.
It was supposed to be a recipe for chicken.
I couldn't find cutlets ones except non-halal ones
Without a choice, I bought the whole breasts instead..
In my head, I was thinking "how is this gonna work... what if I cut it wrongly?"
Because of that little thought, something popped out of my head.
"Let's buy fish too! So, if the chicken didn't turn out well, there's still the fish!"
Yes, I know.. as if fish was any easier to cook.
*sigh*
But I didn't think of that last part at that moment.
The bags that I had to carry back were extremely heavy!

Once home, I started the preparations.
My sister keep asking what I was cooking and said I was taking a long time.
>_>
I didn't answer her but neither did I care about the time.
I took an hour to finish the chicken and fish dish..
When it was supposed to be half an hour as suggested.
'Cause I couldn't find the grinder and I had to manually crush some of the ingredients by hand.
But, my spirits were up and I keep thinking, this HAS to be nice.
After it was all done, I packed 'em all in tin foil and in bags.
Got ready and left for my bf's house.
I left one of the fish and a few chicken pieces in the kitchen.

Bought a tub of Ben & Jerry Vanilla and some drinks on the way.
Scary as it seems... m bf said it was pretty good!
I was surprised that the fish was incredibly delicious and just right.
Not too dry and tasty just like the expensive fish we'd buy at expensive restaurants.
Guess... I was happy.
That night, he messaged saying I cooked the best fish and chicken ever and a job well done.
As pessimistic as I am, I don't know whether he's saying it so I would cook again
Or that's just plainly mean just as that.

But, it seemed so fun to cook that I've decided to try to cook again this weekend.
Plus, for the same food we eat, for example, at Astons, I cooked the stuff up at half the price.

I know I've said I won't cook when we get married...
But, maybe I will..
Once in a while.







:: Isabelll